TAG-Your're It.

Shara tagged me...so here we go....

What were you doing ten years ago?

I was 11 (and a half!) yrs. old & in 6th grade. I was still in Elementry cause of the crazy way the Utah school system does things....I was very short ( no surprise) & my best friend was Allie Branscomb. Pretty sure I dressed horribly. Wore Doc Martens till I lost one in the snow. Ha. I still secretly LOVED Barbies & American Girl Dolls. I played soccer & my boyfriend was Corbin McCabe....we'd been together since 4th grade. HaHa. I couldn't wait till I turned 12 so I could finally go into Young Womens & shop in the young misses department.

What were you doing five years ago?

I was 16 & in my junior year @ Lone Peak High School. I had started dating Dan Macdonald (my first love) & we dated for over a year. My best friends were Jena & Bethany. Loved those girls! My favorite classes were Painting & Creative writing. My favorite teacher was my art teacher Mrs. Shepherd. We'd joke that she was my aunt. I was working my first job at ColdStone Creamery. It was the BEST job ever! I was driving but didn't have my own car. I loved buying little boy t-shirts from D.I. Still was short, I think that's when I stopped growing.


Five things on my to-do list today:

1. Do good on my cleanse.
2. Drink LOTS of water.
3. Work Out
4. Talk to mom about bills
5. Go talk to GM @ Winger's

What snacks I enjoy:

What don't I love?! My family is a total snacker kind. I love chips & salsa, actually any kind of chips. I love salty snacks! Nachos. Peanut butter cups. CORN NUTS!

What would I do if I suddenly became a billionaire?

Pay off all my bills. Buy a nice car. And go on a 3 month sunny & beachy vacation!

Three bad habits?

1. Bite my nails like there's no tomorrow.
2. Can get really impatient sometimes.
3. .....Can't think....

Five places I've lived:

1. Camino, Ca
2. Alpine, Ut
3. Cedar Hills, Ut
4. Vista, Ca
5. Orem, Ut

Five jobs I've had:

1. ColdStone Creamery
2. Wal-Mart
3. Winger's
4. Accounting Options
5. StoresOnline, Inc.

Five things you don't know about me:

1. I have weird OCD moments
2. I like routines. And once I have one it's really hard to break it.
3. I have Scoliois.
4. I sing ALL the time...by myself.
5. Sometimes when I drive I make up a storyline in my head & pretend I'm in a Movie. Ha.

TAG..you're it! *which means I TAG...Brittani & Jayni

St. George Weekend Road Trip

On our Way!

Checking out Dixie Rock

The "Crack"-Yes there are people.

Beautiful St. George Temple

Brady & Jess- We're Bunny Huntin'.

Pretty Sunset.

Casey & I goofing around. Where's the Bunnies?

~*~A few weeks ago my friends & I went down to St. George for the weekend. We had a lot of fun. We drove down friday afternoon & encountered some crazy weather along the way. Once arriving we me up with Brady's sister Brielle & some other friends & had ourselves an INTENSE game of Spoons. We also checked out Dixie Rock & "The Crack"...pretty cool but I am way to clausterphobic to do it. We also went bunny huntin'...but didn't really find any. :-( It was still a lot of fun. We also went swimming & bowling as well. Once Sunday rolled around we had a nice bar-b-que & then headed back up to good 'ol Orem. Fun times!

& that's FINAL....

Wow. The divorce was finalized March 4th.
I am officially Single....

People are saying congrats...& that's how it should be.
I do have a mixture of feelings however.

I am...Relieved - This has been stressing me out a little. I have felt like I was never married in the first place for awhile.I stopped being married as soon as I left in my mind. So it's nice that it's real.

I am...Sad - Even though I know it's for the best & it was the right choice it's still a sad moment for me. My marriage is over. I can't help but feel like I failed in some ways. It hurts. I do have some good memories & I will never forget them.

I am...Excited - To be moving forward with my life. Yes I am 21 & divorced. But I am 21 & still able to start over fresh. I can go back to school. I still have time to do some amazing things with my life. And this has not scared me away from Love & Marriage. I do want to fall in love & get married again (hopefully before I'm 25-haha). I have my whole life in front of me!

To Will - I loved you! Even though our marriage didn't work out, I still think of you as one of my best friends. You knew the real me & you always knew how to make me laugh. You will have have a piece of my heart. Always.

To Myself - I know the last 6-8 months have been some of the hardest we've ever endured. We cried, we hurt, and felt so low. This was a lesson learned. & everything happens for a reason. For the future we know who & what to look for. This has been a true test & what doesn't kill you only makes you stronger. I love you!

I wanna be a Guitar Hero!!

Casey hooking it up....it was a little diffucult.

Kyle & I rocking out. I won. :-)

Casey & me contemplating our lives as Guitar Heros.
& crazy Brady in the back.

Kyle & Erika.

We held a Guitar Hero night at the apartment. We had SOOO much fun. Can't help but love that game. I'm pretty darn good...not gonna lie. & i beat all the boys. haha. Yessssss.

getting on with life & the FUN times!!!

Some Fun Pics From The Past Month:

so i got the papers back from Will & now will take them down to the courthouse to offically start the process. it did make things a little hard. i still struggle at times letting go of Will & my old life. it's hard moving on from something that was such a BIG part of my life for 2 years & someone i really loved.

however every day it does get easier & easier. i adjust to my new life again. and i'm glad i am still young enough to really start over. things will be different this time around! and it's definitely been easy because of family & friends!

i LOVE my roomies/friends...we have so much fun & i'm glad i made the decision to move in with them. it's been so helpful having them around with this whole ordeal i've been going through. as tough as it's been things are going pretty well & i'm settling back into single life pretty well. i still feel kinda weird & i have NO IDEA what i'm doing. but i know with the great friends i have & my awesome family....things will only continue to get better!!

Family Pics

My little brother Spencer left today for BootCamp for the Army so we took new family pics before he left.

fun & flirty [new hair cut]

NEEDED A CHANGE- SO I CHOPPED OFF THE HAIR!

I Moved!

Hol-la I'm in Orem now! I moved in with my friend Erika. Its fun. I'm a big girl now [haha]. It's another step forward & I am loving it. I feel happy to be moving on with my life. The last 2 months have been rough but it's made me stronger & I'm glad to have such great family & friends.


Welp...till next time.

PS: i promise to get better at this!!

the beginning.

well here's my first blog. kinda weird...but i thought it'd be fun to give it a try.

so life has an interesting way of turning out. i never thought i'd be 21 & getting divorced. if you'd told me that 5 years ago i would not have believed you.

the past few weeks have been some of the hardest i've ever had. i have felt so alone & sad. let's just say an emotional roller-coaster. i'm 21 & already starting over. i wish i could hit rewind to 2 years ago... but i can't. so you learn from your mistakes & do it differently the second time around. i never imagined myself to be in the situation i am currently in. i feel like i am in limbo. not here or there....

however i do have hope & faith that things will get better. sometime you have to hurt & suffer to humble yourself before you can begin to heal. i know i will get there & everything will make sense once again.

it just takes time.